What is maintenance? It seems a simple, seemingly obvious, question. Ali asked it in the last post’s comment section. At first I was taken aback, because I thought I’d already answered it with my clever Job Description. But I hadn’t. Ali wanted to know whether maintenance is seeing the same number on the scale day after day after day. Hmmmm.
For people at their highest natural weight, I think it can be. I know when I was at my biggest, my body used its remarkable, dare I say miraculous, systems to maintain a weight, and often it was the same number day after day after day. Most variances I could chalk up to something tangible, and many I could plot on a calendar: the final days of my menstrual cycle would add two pounds to me, which would depart reliably on day two of my period, a day at the amusement park with salty popcorn and other water-retaining treats could add a pound or two for a day or two, then I was back at my number. I didn’t need to concern myself over what a pound here or there meant, because my body would take care of it. If a day hiking meant the scale showed me a pound down, I would hope it was truly a lost pound, but it never was. It was back the next day, as faithful and reliable as the pounds that played on the other side of my equation. I was in caloric balance.
Now that I maintain a weight that is lower than my highest natural weight, maintenance is not so easy to define. We operate from slippery assumptions. I can call myself a maintainer (and the NWCR accepts my proclamation) because today’s scale says I’m 57 pounds lighter than my all-time high. However, I have been as much as 68 pounds below my all-time high. So, am I really a maintainer, or am I a sloooooow yo-yo weight cycler? I don’t know. Is it important to know? I don’t know that either. Obsessing doesn’t seem practical. But still, in the safety of this blog, let’s obsess a little. Size acceptance advocate friends, proceed with caution, or don’t even click through. (If it doesn’t make you mad, it will bore you, at best.) Maintainer friends, let’s enter our dark territories. Read the rest of this entry »
